To Make It Short...

Jayce and I were married in the Snowlfake Az Temple April 18, 2008. We have had alot of fun and a lot of hard times together. We dated three years before he left on his mission to Puebla, Mexico. For two years Jayce served the Lord, and I played the waiting game. Jayce returned from his mission March 10, 2008, and if you can't calculate really fast...that's about five weeks before our wedding. We spent five years waiting and wishing for the day that we could get married, and now here we are, almost a year later. It's funny how you think that if you could only get to a certain point in your life, you would be forever happy, but when you reach that point, you find yourself looking on to another step. I do this alot. I am so happy to be married, Jayce is much kinder to me than I deserve. He is so patient and loving. And then there is me, I am honery and short tempered, and I dont have much patience at all. For the first few months of our marriage, I BEGGED Jayce to let me get pregnant. It took me a few months to convince him, but i finally did. So I got pregnant, no problems, and I thought that my life was set. I thought that I had things pretty much figured out until I went in for my 13 week check up, and found out that our baby had stopped growing. My world stopped...and most days, it still seems to be moving at an extremely slow pace. It is amazing how fast you can fall in love with a child you have never seen. At times I feel really bad because I forget that I have so many things to be grateful for. Its almost like I feel numb, and all I can think about is my loss. Its probably kind of silly I know, but to me I guess its not. I do know that someday (hopefully soon) the Lord will bless us with the opportunity to have children. Elder George Q. Cannon said "God sees not as man sees; he does not willingly afflict his children, and that if he requires them to endure present privation and trial, it is that they may escape greater tribulations which would otherwise inevitably overtake them. If he deprives them of any present blessing, it is that he may bestow upon them greater and more glorious ones by-and-by." I live every day by this hope. I guess we never really know why things happen, but I am sure there is some reasoning for them. In the mean time, there is really so much good in life. I have the GREATEST family ever. I was even fortunate enough to marry into a GREAT family. And my husband is... well he is my Mr. Wonderful. no one else would love me like he does, he is my strength, and he is my love.